Random musing at 03:04

I can't sleep.... so i thought i'd write.

The last few days haven't exactly been easy. I made myself sick worrying and crying over the fact that i hurt someone really really close to me, and who practically means the world to me right now. Plus, there's the whole stresses of my family, work, money and moving in to the new house.... all in all... it's been a stressful few days.

But, i have learnt many things that i need to remember...hence the writing. Yes, i read my blogs too... they serve as a reminder you know? Anyway...

1) As the wise lady said "Exes are exes for a reason". Damn that girl, i hate it when she's right. This little peice of information may be very simple in concept but it's taken a long time to accept. But the lady is right- there's zero point stressing about the small chance that someone might fall back into the arms of someone they once loved, because if they really meant that much, then they wouldn't be exes right? Right. One thing i must remember at all times.

2) I'm worth something. I have to stop being so polite/selfless and quite frankly, a pushover. When someones offers to do something for me, it's not going to cause fuss if i accept. Like if a certain handsome man offered a certain redhead lady a lift home, she should not say no to the lift because she may be worried that he is going out of his way and thinks he thinks he has to when he actually want to because he likes too. Duh Rach.

3) Dont' stress about stuff you can't change. Ever since i was little one of my biggest problems has been taking on stresses that aren't mine. That has to stop. People will argue whether you try and help or not, and some things will just happen.

4) Stop trying to put labels on everything. If i'm happy, when is there any need to question and analyse everything. I'm extremely happy again, much happier and confident that i've felt in ages. And i know why. But be that as it may, it doesn't mean that everything must be examined and labelled. As a certain handsome man said "You think about things way too much".

Handsome man is right.